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Management issues

by Viviana on January 17, 2017

in Personal

I have been comparing myself to others for so long. Most of the time I was so happy with what I found. I was content. About 8 years ago I got into money. My wife was content, too. I started helping and paying the bills for a lot of people whom I never liked, but I desperately wanted them to like me. My management position brought a sense of security and more friends who would really enjoy listening to my stories. They all gave me love. I got a mistress.

A lot of people who have no thinking of their own, or who haven’t found a purpose in life, don’t try to become a better version of themselves. My ego has been running my life for so long. I would wake up every morning and tell myself I was so great, that my job was so amazing, that my wife would love me no matter what. I kept telling myself that I was the lion who could never be defeated.

I met this woman about a year ago. She looked me straight in the eye and told me: you live a lie. Funny enough, I had told her nothing about my life, self-talk and beliefs. She just saw through me and told me the cold, painful truth: I was lying to myself.

Today, I would compare myself to a tulip: at night, it keeps to itself; at daytime it is all open and receptive. And that is the time when it loses its petals.

The more I look inside and I compete with myself, I love myself and I find my inner peace, the more I see the meaning of Life.

And lose my petals, of course.

Change now! Yes, now!

by Viviana on May 13, 2011

in Personal

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I change. I change every day, every minute. I change because I learn and, mainly, because I learn very fast. One thing that you understand by the time you are 38 is that change is very important. What is vital today and needs to be treated as urgent means nothing to anyone in 2 weeks’ time. Fortunately, vice versa hasn’t happened in my life so far.

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Thank you!

by Viviana on May 10, 2011

in Personal

my 38 y.o. b-day present from my friends/colleagues: roses, mascara and perfume :)

I am 38. I turned 38 yesterday. I am the happiest 38 year old I know. I don’t know many people though, there may be millions of other 38 y.o.’s who are having the time of their lives as I am now. Every day.

I thank my daughter, my friends/colleagues for the most beautiful surprises in the world, for their smiles, hugs, family hugs, cheers, kisses, jokes, fun, love and, above all, for having me in their lives and loving me exactly as I am, and for what I am.

Thank you, my dear daughter, for being the first one to say Happy Birthday to Mummy last night! And for making me feel so loved. Every day.