In Strict Confidence – Schwarzes Licht

In Strict Confidence

In Strict Confidence

Schwarzes Licht Video


Die Stadt schläft tief

doch du kannst es nicht

weil ich dich rief

und die Gedanken drehen sich

bist unachtsam,

nur für einen Augenblick

und schon kommt alles zurück

Glaub mir kein Wort

und das was es verspricht

dein Herz schlägt fort

doch die Tabletten helfen nicht

du wünschst es dir

nur für einen augenblick

und ich bin wieder zurück

Jetzt bin ich wieder hier

du reichst mir deine Hand

Lange nicht gesehen, doch gleich wieder erkannt

Du willst so vieles wissen

und du willst mich küssen

doch ich brauch dich nicht

tauch in ein schwarzes Licht

Du rufst mir hinterher

und deine Sehnsucht brennt

Willst mich so vieles fragen

willst noch so viel sagen

doch hier hör´ dich nicht

tauch in ein schwarzes Licht

Der Traum wirkt nach

Ich werde dich verführ´n

Dein Herz liegt brach

Doch du kannst nichts mehr spüren

Bist so naiv

Was glaubst du was du schmeckst

Wenn du dir deine Wunden leckst

Glaub mir kein Wort

und das was es verspricht

Wünsch dich weit fort

Nein, nein es gelingt dir nicht

Ich brauch dich nicht

Ein letzter kuss

Ein letztes mal

In Strict Confidence – I Surrender

nina de lianin - in strict confidence

nina de lianin - in strict confidence

I Surrender Video
On the black mountain
the snow is burning
and streams of ashes
are floating down
Against the wild wind
I carry the white flag
lost is my kingdom
lost is my crown
I surrender – Take my romance!
I surrender – Take control!
I am defeated! Help me, Jesus!
Love’s the beast that killed my soul

You were my
silver ray of dawning
saving me from
midnight blue
But a blind man’s trust
was built on dust
as never a single
word was true
I surrender – Take my romance!
I surrender – Take control!
I am defeated! Help me, Jesus!
Love’s the beast that killed my soul

getting old(er)

After reading Liz’s post on getting old(er), I felt enlightened again!

Grammar: a year ago I started GMS-ing. I decided to ignore Romanians who don’t know how to write in Romanian.

Forgiving: in the same manner, I don’t forgive so easily anymore. I erase people from my life as easily as I zap through TV channels. I have learned in 37 years that once people make 2 mistakes, people always make mistakes.

Diet: 3 years ago I realized no diet works for me! I will weigh 65-70 kg for the rest of my days.

The Internet: it makes me happy. It used to annoy me 5 years ago.

Age: When I tell people I am 37 (I started being 37 2 years ago) they compliment me on the way I look! (oh, you look so much younger!). This happened for the first time when I turned 35. For so many years no one complimented me… I wonder why does this happen? Pity?

Girl: I feel funny when someone calls me: hey, girl! I feel like turning my head to see if my daughter is behind me.

Friendships: ….and still, I suddenly feel very close to people of the same age and sex as me! Although I sometimes realize the only thing that connects us is age…and I enjoy calling them: girl!

Going out: I realize that these are the last years I have the chance to go out, so I hysterically drag my child to all kinds of concerts I like, so maybe one day she will take me with her, too! (if I behave, probably!).

Talking to 20 year old’s: I started calling people “kids”. It works in Romanian! When they politely say: “but you are not that old to call me kid…” I answer: “I am 37”. There is a weird silence before they all explode into: “ohhh, I couldn’t tell, you look much younger” compliments…

Hannah Montana: I don’t understand how a 9 year old can like Hannah Montana and Aesthetic Perfection at the same time cause I only like AP…

Traveling: I book as many low cost flights as I can, even though I end up not using them.

Movies: I watch too many vampire movies for my age, but I don’t find that weird! (Well, I always liked vampires and similar legends full of heroes and lovely fairies).

Music: I know Depeche Mode is a legend already (:(), so I try to reprioritize for live acts! Thank God for German electro bands!

Patience: I am getting more and more patient with children, friends, students and clients every day. Still, the patience to listen to things I am not interested in or watching movies I don’t like is proportionally decreasing.

Importance: things in my life are increasingly being categorized as: important and the rest.

Happiness 1: I am happy when I see my child, my family, my friends, my colleagues, when I listen to music, when I accomplish something, or when I visit a new place. I can’t think of anything else right now.

Happiness 2: I am happy when I see 20 year old girls look like walking disasters.

Clothes: I wear anything I feel like wearing! It’s the last 2 years (or it was a long time ago…lol) I can do that.

Passion: I sometimes feel my passion for the things I love and my work doesn’t go with my age anymore. But my passion prevails, like Depeche Mode’s Strangelove!

This is me now. Not for long!

In Strict Confidence and Prague

IN STRICT CONFIDENCE in Prague, Abaton Club, May 8, 2010

IN STRICT CONFIDENCE in Prague, Abaton Club, May 8, 2010

Prague is the perfect city: you can visit it on foot (let’s say the steps to the castle on the hill are a little hard to climb, but we aren’t that old yet). So, the old town, the small town, the center, the side streets full of cute little shops, the parks and the bridges can all be visited in 2 days tops, without hopping in and off buses.

Bohemian crystal (traditional souvenir stuff), beer of all sorts, cozy cafes, excellent food served either in elegant little gardens or in pivnice (cellars), cobble stone (sometimes pretty tiring!, but it looks old and genuine), grand castles, painters and craftsmen, stories, myths, legends, fairy tales, museums of all kinds (from a ghost museum to a pleasure toys museum), puppets and puppet theaters, cathedrals, churches, all easy to reach and logically explained on maps – make Prague a wonderful destination.

The reason why I went to Prague in May 2010 was primarily the In Strict Confidence concert @Abaton Club (I have to admit I envy the Czech for their geared club), on May 8 (Dennis Ostermann’s birthday – some of us choose to work even on their b-day:)).

I wore my lenses for the first time and I almost lost one in the middle of a very pleasant conversation! Well, my reaction was natural: Ooops! I’m losing an eye!

I took flash pics, and I am sorry I blinded Antje and Dennis forever, but I couldn’t leave empty handed (here is the gallery). I tried to take pics without the flash and only God and Octa are my witnesses it didn’t work. Here are the pics I took during the Rabia Sorda concert (before ISC). And, of course, a professional photo gallery from Petr Klapper. A very special photo here. I definitely know when this pic was taken, and I thank Petr for that! A sweet memory from Prague, from Abaton Club, from a concert to remember!

Back to Prague: the photos from the ghost museum I visited, the torture museum, places I saw, food I tasted (and, of course, the beer!) are more than any words I may try to use to describe the nicest medieval town I have visited so far. Charles Bridge is amazing: the statues on the sides are quite a sight both from a close or long distance. In my opinion, Prague is the city designed for tourists, and I dare say that for the ones who can walk at least 8 hours every day! Prague has sights that need to be admired from different angles, increasing the impact and the beauty every time you watch a statue, a building or any other detail.

As usual, Depeche Mode were with me! As I entered a shop, a selection of older and newer songs from my favorite band was blasting!

I look forward to this summer’s trip to Germany. We are going to Amphi Festival in Cologne, and hopefully, we will meet many many friends and have lots of fun!

In Strict Confidence – Snow White

IN STRICT CONFIDENCE, Abaton, Prague, May 08, 2010

IN STRICT CONFIDENCE, Abaton, Prague, May 08, 2010

Snow White Video

IN STRICT CONFIDENCE photo gallery – ABATON, PRAGUE, MAY 08, 2010

Once upon a time a queen
sits sewing in the night
one black candle by the cradle
is her only light
She pricks her finger on a needle
by the window’s site
a dark drop of blood is falling
in the snow so white
Mirror, mirror on the wall
who is fairest of them all?
it’s Snow White on my plate
dancing with my razor blade

Mirror, mirror on the wall
who is fairest of them all?
who is pleasing me tonight?
angel dust or homicide?

Mistress of the magic mirror
white as snow and black as sin
I adore the bloody snowflakes
melting on your marble skin
In her hand the golden apple
from a stranger at the door
angels sighing – She is lying
stretched out on the freezing floor
Mirror, mirror on the wall
who is fairest of them all?
it’s Snow White on my plate
dancing with my razor blade
Mirror, mirror on the wall